I have 12 days until I return to work. 12 days. I have so much to do to get ready, but all I want to do is hold my little boy. I have to:
1) Get a haircut
2) Kiss my baby
3) Get some new clothes
4) Hug my baby
5) Get up early every day and have Vaughn dressed and ready by 7:00 - even if he goes back to bed, that's okay, I need to get into a routine.
6) Tell my baby how much I love him - I don't want him to forget that.
7) Fill out the mountain of paperwork for my dayhome
8) Take Vaughn on the field trips I've been putting off "until next week"
9) Try to see all my friends and family that I don't get to see very often and will probably see less when I go back to work.
10) Sell all the baby things Vaughn doesn't use anymore to get rid of the clutter that is building up in the basement.
11) Have at least one adult conversation a day so I don't return to the office and say "be-doops and fe-doops" and ask people to clap their hands for me.
12) Remind myself that I'm not a horrible person for abandoning my child. He's going to be taken care of by a very wonderful delightful woman. I will always be his mommy no matter what. Lots of women go back to work and their kids turn out just fine. It's making the best of the time we have together that counts.
I can do this.
You are not abandoning your child. It's hard, I know. I went back to work after I had Willem. It was good for him because he had a wonderful place to go everyday. It was good for me (even if I didn't know it at the time). It amazes me to no end the guilt that goes along with having children...I hear that it never really ends.
ReplyDeleteHope you have a great last 12 days before you go back!
you totally can do this!! i am so proud of you!!!
ReplyDeleteHows the list coming along??